I don't need comments on how stupid and gullible I am, and why the heck I would believe something so obviously fake. I already feel so stupid and don't need to be reminded of it. I'm crying, that's how stupid I feel.

The names in this are different from their real life names just in case someone I know stumbles upon this...

Anyways, there's this guy. Let's call him "Thomas". I really like Thomas. My friend, "Rhea" knows this, and tells Thomas's twin brother, "Colt". I used to have a crush on Colt, and we're pretty good friends... but truth be told, he can be a pretty big Jackass. I stopped thinking of Colt that way awhile ago, but I've also always had a crush on Thomas for the longest time. I've kept it a secret for the longest time, until a few weeks ago when I told Rhea. A few weeks ago, she told him that I wanted to dance with him... which I did, but I hadn't told anybody that, I wanted to be the one to tell him... But I woulda chickened out, so I'm kinda glad that she asked him for me haha.

So the Halloween dance came around and I wound up dancing with him twice. Both times my friends asked him to dance with me. It was really the greatest night of my entire life. He now knew I liked him.

H O W E V E R . . .

Last week Friday, Colt and Rhea were the biggest jackasses ever. (I've totally forgiven Rhea, though... her intentions were good. BFFL!! <3 I dunno 'bout Colt's intentions, though... ahahah) Me and Rhea were talking on msn and she invites colt into the conversation. Colt's pretending to be Thomas. I end up asking him if he likes me and he says yes and then Rhea asks him if he'd like to be my bf. He says yes. (Rhea knew about this whole thing... it was her idea. She admitted to it) so I get all excited. Then Rhea leaves the conversation and Colt's all like "You're gonna hate me." Me in all my giddyness refuse to believe that I would hate him, so I'm like "No! I would never hate you. <3 Why would I hate you?" Then he's like "Bahaha rofl cuz it's not Thomas, it's Colt!" I felt so stupid and gullible THEN... but Last night totally beats last week's fiasco.

So, on Facebook, I posted as my honesty box question "Do you think I am hot?" and I got a reply saying "yes". The conversation went like this: (Werner's Colt's and Thomas's last name)

The guy: Yes

Me: Awhz! ^_^ Thanks. Can I know who this is?

The Guy: Guess who this is.

Me: lol. I am really not good at guesses. Can I have a hint? ^_^

The Guy: Werner

Me: Thomas?

The Guy: Yes.

Me: Awh. <3 I think you're hot, too.

The Guy: We should hang out.

Me: When and where?

The Guy: Call me.

Me: I don't have access to a phone right now, my brother's using it. What's your msn? ((I knew Colt's but I didn't know Thomas's. T_T))

The Guy: It's not working right now, my number is (He put his number here)

Me: ok.

Can I trust it's not just Colt toying around with me again and I'm not gonna call and look like a dork?

The Guy: why not im hurt i come out with this and u wont call or even beleve me :'(

Me: No! I didn't mean it that way. I have to wait a few minutes for the phone to be free but I'll call you.

The Guy: Ok!

Time passes and I reluctantly pick up the phone, fearing the worst. I call the number that the anonymous person gave me and lo and behold, it is in fact the werners' home phone number. I stutter kind of and ask if Thomas is there. I didn't know what else to say, so I just kind of said, "Hi... this is Tara. Umm, were you just on Facebook?" and then he's like "No..." and then I just kinda said "Aww, f*ck. I'm sorry for calling you... sorry. Sorry..." and he just kinda said "Uhh... okay". I felt like a fricken retard! So I went back to the Honesty box...

Me: JERK. It WAS you, Colt! I just called. I FEEL LIKE A DORK. Colt, I hate you! A lot!

The Guy: it not Colt

Me: Then who is this?

The Guy: U know who this is.

Me: If I knew, I obviously wouldn't be asking. Now tell me who this is!

The Guy: Colt.

Me: You just told me it wasn't you. I hate you, you know that? You're nothing but a retarded jerk.

Me (5 mins later): WHO ARE YOU. I just msn'd Colt and he just said he didn't know what the hell I was talking about. Tell me, who the **** are you and why the **** did you do this? I look like a ******* blond retard right now and it's all because of you!

The Guy: Colt Tolkerson

Me: No, it is not Colt Tolkerson because neither Colt Werner or Thomas Werner even like Tolkerson. Why the hell would they give you their number if they didn't like you.

Just tell me who you are, and I'll be on my way.

The Guy: Anthony Denehie

Me: I HIGHLY doubt that. Anthony's my friend and would never do that. I also highly doubt that he knows the werners' number!

The Guy: Nevermind.

Me: Listen. I don't know who you are, but once I do find out, I will personally see to it that all my friends "take care of you" got it?

There were no replies after that.

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*sigh* I feel like such a dumb blond retarded dork right now.

Thomas knows about last week's incident, but since he wasn't involved in it, I was able to just kinda act like it never happened. However with this... since I actually wound up calling him, I wouldn't be surprised if he thinks I'm too stupid to like.

*big, exasperated sigh*

Thomas is a nice guy, excellent personality, knows when to keep his mouth shut... that's the reason I like him. But with this, I donno... T_T

uuuggghhhh.....

What would you recommend me to do in this situation? I only see him once a week (We're in different towns... we go to cadets and that's how we know each other. The next time I see him is Tuesday.)

PS, I'm 15, and Thomas is 16. Kudos to you if you read that all.